You are my reason to be
By Youko Gingitsune
The moon is full in the sky tonight... this moon makes me remember a lot of
Kurama, (all makes me remember of Kurama) of his smooth mane, I have never
touched something softer than his fur, but not even the magnificent moon can
match Kurama's silver mane... what could Kurama be doing now? In nights like
this one, when the moon is full, Kurama can't avoid turning youko, his true
nature calls him... because youko Kurama is his really self, Shuuichi is just
the name of the human body he posses... Kurama is not human, his soul is purely
youkai, but it's a soul in which human feelings have influenced... all us youkai
have feelings, I can't believe I'm saying so, I feel like laughing of myself but
I can't because that's true, Kurama showed me, he had showed me a lot of things
and the most important, he had showed me how to love... he said that I always
had a heart, that I always had that love inside me, but that I didn't know how
to use it, and that's true but not all the true. It's not just that I didn't
know how to 'use' it, I didn't want to give it to somebody, I'm sure that even
if I had known about love before things wouldn't have been different...
When I look into your eyes I realize
That my love for you will never ever die
Together for the rest of our lives
I always got you here by me side
I accepted no one near me for more than the necessary time, I had bound with
nobody, if something was in my way I made it disappear, but you... I couldn't
did that with you, you didn't let me, you always were with me even when I shooed
you away, you bound me to you and I haven't even noticed and when I did it was
too late, you were in my way and I couldn't made you disappear because you were
my target! You had always been but I didn't know till I met you, do you
remember, Kurama? When we met? I thought you were an enemy, and you probably
were, but I have always accepted that I loved you since the first time I looked
at your deep and mysterious eyes... you were young, no, your human body was
young, the first time we met it had 14 years and we fought... I was hurt and I
fainted, just waiting death because fainting in front another was certainly
death, but the last thing I thought before fainting was if I had ever seen eyes
like yours, so beautiful but inside so dangerous, so mysterious, an enigma still
inside them. But instead of killing me you took care of me, healing my wounds,
watching over my sleep, helping me to fight.
Nani mo iwasu tai shimeta
Anatano yasashisa wo
Wasureru hiwa naino
You are my reason to be
=said what you said the story will end
but your kindness
will make me not to forget a single day
You are my reason to be=
That first time we fought side by side... do you remember? It seemed that we had
fought together a lifetime, it was as if you could read my movements and I
yours, it fit so perfectly... since that night your name got engraved in my
memory along with that fiery glare behind the green orbs. We became friends
then, you told me that if I wanted to look for Yukina in the ningenkai the best
was to hide near you just in case and I did, but no because your reason but...
it felt so good to be with you, you heard my mumblings, you never shooed me
away, not even when I was in the worse of the moods... you never feared me, not
even when I loosed my temper and felt like killing, you just glared at me
challenging, with no fear of me, you didn't run away from because of that...
You are a dream come true
You're everything to me
You are so beautiful
You are my reason to be
The night you told me that you loved me, just a day after we returned from the
ankoku bujutsukai, I couldn't told you the words, they got stuck in my throat
but my eyes betrayed me, they told you all you needed to know. Do you remember
how you raised me in your arms to reach your room and we made love; for the
first time in all my life I let myself to be possessed, for the first time in my
life I felt the warm of another's lips on mines; you took my body and with that
the last resistance I could have had because my heart was already yours. You,
powerful and smart thief got to stole the only thing I thought nobody could
because I didn't have it, my heart!
For the first time in my life I let all my barriers down and till now you are
the only one that can see through them, it's just to feel you or to think about
you and all the possible barriers I could want to grow just fall down...
I don't even know when it happened... at the beginning I thought it could have
been physical attraction but since I knew no much about those things... but you
showed me all I needed, all you wanted, a millenary creature with an experience
in those kind of pleasures that would make any god envy.
Do you know that at the beginning of all this madness I was terrified and the
same time overwhelmed...? it was so confusing to me at that time. I felt
overwhelmed because I had been love by the most desired creature in the three
worlds, the one worship as a god of beauty... and fear because I have already
heard what that beauty had done to so much beings, but as the others I couldn't
avoid to be bewitched by the sensuality and mystery of that glare, that playful
and sensual smile... I thought that you were just playing with me, that you
wanted my body to fulfill the desires of a creature hungry of carnal desires, of
sexual release, that you thought of me as one of those night stand lovers that
you should have had by tons in your past. All those ideas where in my head till
that night...
I never knew how good it could be
To loving you
You loving me
*Flashback*
"Ku... Kura... ma...!!!" my back arched, and my lips opened in a guttural yell
as you entered deeper in me, faster, kissing my nipples and touching my body
with skilled hands. I grabbed you strongly, my nails buried in your back,
pressing my erection between our bellies, seen stars each time you touched that
part inside my body that make me shiver with delight and want to die in your
arms.
You stopped suddenly, your hips stopped their movement, your hands kept still as
the rest of your body. I gave a growl of frustration and I opened my eyes to
found yours barely inches from mine. You were serious, your eyes were trying to
see through me, and I suddenly felt naked, it wasn't the fact that I had no
clothes, but I felt completely and absolutely naked in front of those searching
eyes... I turned my face around trying to escape... but I didn't know what I was
running away from.
You got out of me and I felt empty at that moment, my legs hugged you, to your
waist, don't letting you got completely out, I didn't realize of it till I began
pushing you inside me again, but you didn't let. I turned to look at you, what
have I done wrong?, my eyes asked, don't you want me?, they wondered, please
don't do this to me, they begged. You moved away, parting my legs and getting
out but your hands were still on me, caressing. I tried to face you again but I
couldn't, my penis was painful erected begging for release, the release that
only you could gave me, my anus was trembling reclaiming for the emptiness that
you have let there, deliciously sore and wanting.
You caressed my face tenderly and then you leaned down over me, kissing all my
face, my eyes, my nose, my lips, my ears, arousing me even more... you bit my
ear's lobe and whispered.
"Hiei... do you... want me...?" I opened my eyes and looked at you. I nodded but
you were waiting no just a nod. "Ha- hai."
"I do want you too, each part of your body arouse me to peak, you are so
innocently sensual." I flushed, and I didn't know if to be mad for been called
innocent or even more embarrassed for being called sensual by a creature like
him. "I want you Hiei, I want you all... inside me."
That shocked me, my eyes widened out of their limits, my breath stopped, and I
turned my face slowly to him blinking a few times. My mouth opened but I could
say nothing, how much I wanted to please him, burning of the arousal of the idea
but was just afraid... you seemed to read it in my face and smiled to me
assurance. You kissed me passionately, our tongues caressed each other, sucking
and drinking, so deep and wild I thought I would die of lack of air. Your hands
began caressing my body again and you mounted me, you held my erection strongly
and began pumping it, squeezing it as you engulfed me with your lips, then you
began guiding me to your entrance, my penis caressing your crack. We separated
our lips, we were gasping and looking at each other with burning eyes.
You turned, still sat over me, letting me see your delicious butt, you began
caressing your own buttocks and your split, in front of my face you inserted a
finger in your hole, making your back arch. My breath was difficult at that
moment, my eyes were fixed in your moving finger, I licked mine and inserted it
along with yours, taking a sigh from you and we moved them inside you, you were
so thigh and hot that the single idea of being inside you made me tremble of
excitement, I inserted another to probe and a noise left you throat.... I wanted
to see you face, to see your pleasure, your strength and weakness and I turned
you around again...
Oh, you are; oh, you are
So beautiful to me
You're everything to me
You are my reson to be
You looked deliciously aroused but that lustful smile adorned your lips as some
wet bangs fell over your face. You positioned yourself over me, grabbed my penis
and you penetrated yourself with it. I clenched my hands at the sheets, my eyes
wanted to close by I made a hard effort no to... I wanted to see you at that
moment and I did, it was the most beautiful image I have ever seen in all my
live, it was priceless, nor even makai, ningenkai and reikai were a worthy price
to what I had the honor to see.
You were all flushed, your back so arched that made your hair reach my hips,
your lips partially open, eyes closed... I would have died happy at that moment,
I swear, you looked so damned vulnerable and deliciously arousing. I wanted to
move but I don't know how I restrained myself... damn, you were so tight and hot
and tasty but I didn't wanted to hurt you, you had been so gentle with me the
first time... the least I could do was wait till you get used to it but I felt
as I were to explode at that moment...!!
You opened you eyes slowly and looked at me with a sweet smile. "fuck me, Hiei."
you hissed. I felt embarrassed at your words, I wasn't used to it, it was just
the fifth night we were sharing.
You began moving over me and that made me react, my hips began moving by their
own volition and my senses took charge of my body, I was just aware of you and
your oh so tight hole... my hands rose and began caressing your sensual, perfect
and weak ningen body, pinching your hard nipples, trusting faster in you.
I sat with you still in my lap and began trusting even harder, barely aware of
it, pushing you down, hugging you as you were clenched to my body with such
strength that it seems I would break but my mind was so taken by the wave of
pleasure that I hardly was aware of something but your tight hole, your moans
and cries of pleasure. Your trembling body wrapped all around me was in all that
concentrated my world in that moment.
Oh, yes... that was good, as good as been taken, I wouldn't mind the variation
now and then. My body reacted and I felt yours too and we come at the same time.
I yelling your name and you biting my neck so hard that made it bleed.
We both fall back, you were above me and I still inside you, our breath were
mere gasps, trying to catch some air, recovering gradually of the delicious
climax.
After some time of being like that you moved away to rest by my side and hugged
me possessively, in a spoon like position. "Did you like it, love?"
I still wasn't used to that specifically name, love, but you insisted telling me
that I was the owner of that title, youko Kurama's lover, and that I was worth
of it, that it make you proud... it was still hard to believe that someone could
be proud of having me, the forbidden child, the coursed... but you had never
treated me like one, you had always made me fell important, someone...
You sighed and I realized that I haven't answered, but what could I say, I had
loved it but the words were stuck at my throat and I cursed myself for not being
able of give my love what he deserved... at least some few words that I knew
would made you happy, but again I couldn't so I turned around and looked at
those green depths trying to tell you with my eyes all that I couldn't with
words. You seemed to understand, because in my eyes were at that moment love and
devotion... and fear too... you kissed me passionately and I answered eargerly
and we made it again and again and again and you let me do it to you again,
telling me that I could do that any time I wanted.
*end of flashback*
All those ideas were still in my head but I stopped worrying about them, the
hell with them, I had you and that was all that matter to me till now, you are
the most important thing to me and I have sweared myself to protect you no
matter what... no matter how much it cost me... as long as we have each other...
I jump from the branch I was lying on, to another, then another, fast, too fast
to human eye to catch it, I'm going to him, Kurama should be at 'their' house by
now (his and his mother's); waiting me in... in 'our' room(mine and Kurama's)
You are my reson to be
You are my reson to be
You are my reson to be
~OWARI~
You are my Reason to Be -- Saint Seiya